you've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be
A little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Maybe
But none of them will ever love you
The way I do, it's me and you


I am so content with my life right now.

Aside from a sprained ankle, I'm really really happy.

For several reasons. Everything is going well for once. Or at least I'm starting to improve everything...my self, my relationship with God, my artwork, my love life.... and I'm clearly having a lot of fun with friends.

I mean I have a long way to go still before I'm decently good at everything, but at least I'm happy and enjoying the process.

And some people dance

First of all, anyone reading this...go to Google right now! That is an order! Well not really, but it's beautiful. The whole page is covered in a photograph of colorful orbs floating in a pond. Ah, Google, you get me every time with your random, adorable images.

I feel oddly in the mood to write and so I shall.
On to what I wanted to say....

I'm ridiculously obsessed with quotes. I find them so inspirational. Lucky for me, I don't feel unoriginal because many people enjoy quotes. I definitely figured out why I do. They're relatable...I mean c'mon that wasn't too hard to grasp. Often times I find myself lost just trying to figure out a way to describe a feeling or some concluded piece of knowledge I managed to discover...and yet so many wise people have already done that for me! Now I'm able to just enjoy the quotes that I can relate to and try to listen to the advice given to me.

I seriously cannot stop quoting The Curious Case of Benjamin Button movie. I tried reading the short story, but didn't finish it. I can't make any judgments about the original story, but I love the movie so much (especially Brad Pitt's role).

I keep posting a million quotes from that movie on various sites, so here's a new one:
"There was a silence in the house. It was a wonderful place to grow up. I was with people who had shed all the inconsequences of earlier life. Left wondering about the weather, the temperature of a bath, the light at the end of the day."

It's so simple and yet I think it's such a beautiful quote. I think often times, we all get caught up in stress and inimportant things weighing down on us...we forget about the simple pleasures of life. For instance, in the movie, in the nursing home, the house was silent and Benjamin enjoyed listening to all the little nuances of sound surrounding him. Also, I think it's interesting that weather is mentioned. I realized a few older people I know are always concerned about the weather...I feel like that makes sense. The weather is a non-controversial topic, one that we can all relate to and understand. I think people as they age, may be more interested in the weather because it's something that won't bring up too much hardship. Sure, it can rain for days, or snow, or just generally be depressing weather, but one day there is bound to be sunshine.

Anyway, I don't know if any of this is making sense, but I just felt the need to write about this.


And the last lines of the movie are gorgeous in my opinion. They're not anything fancy or garish, but they give me goosebumps every time.

Maybe I'm too damn sentimental, but I like being this way.

Almost There

I feel that in most areas of my life I am "almost there." Well I'm tired of feeling that way. I want to be there dammit and I'm going to try!

To sum everything up, there are two things I need to fix in my life.
-I need to lose weight and be in shape
-I need to drastically get better at drawing

Ok...these are things I want anyway.

And you know what slightly upsets me? I know that more than anything I want to be a talented artist, but right now I feel that improving my drawing is on the back burner. For awhile, I've been wanting to get in shape and I feel more motivated to fix my body right now than my craft...that can't be good. It's like, I want to get better at drawing of course, but I feel that improving my body will boost my confidence and I'll be all around happier...and when I'm happy, I'll enjoy drawing more.

It's like...I need creative juices to start flowing.


But also, I just want to be happy...and many signs in my life are telling me that I need to start thinking positive, being optimisitc and just trying to have fun...because deep down, I just want to have fun and be happy...my sometimes serious front is just a sign of fear and self-doubt. I really want to erase these things from my life.


I'm trying at least. :)

healthy, wealthy and wise

And don't we all want to be all of those things?

Um I don't think I listen to my body well enough. It really makes the perfect judgments of my own health. Sounds simple enough. But I feel like it's something we all forget.

Lately, I think my body is telling me I need more sleep and water. I feel weak, and my body's like "Why are you doing this to me?!"


This sounds stupid. I think it sounded more profound in my head. Anyway, I guess what I'm saying is that I appreciate that I have a better general understanding of my health these days. In the past, I don't think I ever listened to my body.


-“Every human being is the author of his own health or disease.” -Buddha

sometimes

Sometimes I worry that I'm not getting everything across...let me try to explain this. I feel like I have so much I want to share with the world...comforting, sweet, ideas...fun ideas, beautiful things...I dunno. I was watching Pixar's Up and I fall in love with it more each time. Just how they presented the characters with such charm. I just feel like I want to present those things too...and either I'm not doing it right or I don't have as many charming ideas as I thought I did...

Lately I feel like my teachers are telling me I have a lot of potential. That I'm capable of being amazing. This is both good and bad. I guess I just want to be amazing now and I don't know how to. I'm struggling. I just feel like something's not clicking...and hopefully one day it will all make sense? But is it that easy?

I just don't know.

Hope

I wrote this in 10th grade in high school. Some things never change.

"A very important word to me is hope. I think we all must have hope, cherish hope and never let it go. I've come to realize that when everything is hitting and chipping at me, hope keeps me sane. Hope is easily clichéd, but it is important. I want to leave this world knowing that hope actually was a good thing. I want to tell people to have hope, even if everything doesn't always go right. To dream about something to come can be difficult, but I find it so worth it instead of living in pessimism thinking nothing will ever get better. Maybe one day that boy will like you. Maybe one day you'll feel complete again (even though all your loved ones are gone). I hope to become a better person as I grow up. I wrote a poem once perfectly describing myself; I always felt that I was "Vulnerable, not beautiful," but I hope one day that I can change. The thing is, for me it's hard to just dream and not do anything about it. When I hope, I drive myself to try to achieve what I am dreaming about. Some things are more difficult to attain, but just that feeling that everything is within reach if you want it enough is a comforting thing to me."