I know I'm mostly crazy, but half the time I feel that Amanda hates me. Perhaps hate is too strong of a word...let's change it to doesn't respect or take me seriously.

I don't know. It makes me violent.

But sometimes I can understand why she would feel that way if she does.

And when it comes to the heart of it, it makes me sad. We were supposed to be in all this together. At least I thought we did anyway. Now I just feel like a nuisance to her.

I hope this is mostly in my head.