It's hard for me to accept events lately. I keep getting mad at myself. Why didn't I do this instead of that?

Honestly, those thoughts are dumb and are getting me nowhere.

Everything happens for a reason. I firmly believe that. I don't know why certain things are happening lately, but I hope, I really hope and deep down I actually believe, that something positive will come out of all of this.

I'm trying very hard to hold on to that hope.